Break free!

I shall wait for the day when technology would allow a person to log his ideas when they are generated. The process of penning down the past thought process removes the spontaneity out of the train of thoughts . But till the invention happens I guess using my blog would be the next best option.

"Bring me some sunshine bring me some rain , give me another chance so that Igrow up one again " lines of song which is being aired everywhere. To my friends who are abroad and not connected to recent movies in bollywood the song comes from a movie 3 idiots. The song attempts to portray the agony of youngsters who are caught in the rigors of curriculum and social pressures to perform and are robbed of their freedom, which allows them to be themselves.

The movie has been the talk of the town and people are urged to give their children the freedom to decide about their own lives. I recently watched snippets of a show in a television channel which was airing the rags to riches story of a guy who became an IPS officer although he belonged to a farming family of modest background . He said all his father wanted was to make sure that he gave fodder to the Buffalo without fail. Whether he studied hard or not was not his father's concern .The guy realized this dream. Am I trying to say that parental support is desirable not essential? No! Children are young and tender they need nurturing and support. All I am saying is that the view point of the parents are guided by their social realities , which even they can't help . I feel if the parents were to air the rationale behind their train of thoughts to their child , he / she would see the reason. Is it unfair ?? I don't think so , if our parents are expected to provide for us we should also try and share their anxieties and this is not out of sense of duty but out sense of love and belonging. I am not asking a person to abandon his dreams but to find out the path which would eventually lead him to his dreams while taking care of the current realities . One might be compelled to take up a job because of the family necessities but the story doesn't end there! He/ she can eventually opt for doing what they want when the situations are conducive , one just needs to keep the fire of the want simmering inside. People like Shekhar Kapoor , Boman Irani are successes but they opted for doing their own things after pursuing a career, which may have been a choice borne out of their constraints. In fact many youngsters do not even know what they want to do and confusing freedom to act with loafing aimlessly is a common mistake they make .

But in the end its YOUR life, decide what suits you best but remember parents and more so Indian parents are more frightened than their child for its security and THAT is a fact worth respecting atleast.

Mosaic

Mosaic ! I remember that the title was suggested for the SPJCM batch of May'2008 , of which I was a part. The name symbolized the diversity of characters in the batch. The year has passed , leaving me wiser, contemplative and Obtusely HR oriented . Everyone must have expectations before joining the course ,so did I and was sad to discover that I didn't realize the life that I was yearning for. Dissatisfaction also leaves one in a reflective mood. Happens with me all the time! One such spells made me realize that life also bears the same name and character of a mosaic , what's even more unique is that the patterns of every one's life and its colours are varied . That's what makes life interesting too. I sometimes wonder If we really have the power to alter the texture and colours of our own mosaic. People who discard element of fate say we do. I say I am not so sure.

Off late after meeting with one my school senior who also practices astrology, and introspection I realized that the majority of the colours of my mosaic are grey.... It's partly due to my tendency to procrastinate . But I really feel tiered at times, the bursts of energy that I feel are only for a very short period. I sustain them by external pressure , S.P Jain was one place where I did that . But I was not happy doing it. Satisfied , Yes! but not happy. But not being able to do what I plan to do doesn't leave me either satisfied or happy. Wish I could be able to see where my piece fits in the bigger picture created by the ONE above , so that I could figure out what the aim of my life was and Could go for it without hesitations. If I was sure we were allowed to choose our own mosaic colours I would have made an effort else it would so relaxing to move with the flow. Life my dear friends is a mystery and good that is , else it would be very predictable and predictability is boring . But few have the courage to venture into the unknown with eagerness , for me it causes concern. My attitude has been the result of the outcomes of my efforts in past , which have been a notch lower than what I aimed for.

I am still hopeful though! hope my inner voice clears my Vision and gives me the knowledge to know the difference between the things that I can change and those I can't. Efforts could thus be conserved.